Hello Marcie,
I'm writing this letter because I feel this I the only way I can say how I feel and what made me do what I did.
I want to start by saying thank you for providing me a place to live. You will always have a special place in my heart forever. I love you and hopefully we may e able to
Let bygones be bygones. And be sister friends again. If not I wish only the best for you
Some of this stuff may be difficult to take. I m not sure that you’d be able to handle it.
You talked to me and listened to me although I was messing up your high I just needed to talk about all of the things that were bothering me and you listened gave me some advice.
I felt very close to you. And I thought that you felt the same way.
Ai wish I knew what it was I did that make you so upset that you felt we couldn’t talk or
Even squash it. I felt if I just let it all ride that the truth would be seen without sp much drama. You hurt me very much. More than once. You know that you can say hurtful things and admitting them and apologizing is not what you usually do.
I came in your home with only the best intentions possible. Any mistakes I tried to fix them. And apologize for them. If there were things in the way you like things cleaned you just had to say so. You get at me like I'm a child being in your home doesn’t give you the right to treat adults the way you treated me.
So now it seems that everyone business is being told with every ones extra seasoning added. So If that’s the case its time for confessions and I will tell it all about me and everything else.
When I first moved there you made me feel very welcome. Understood and I felt I would get help. I wanted to help the best way I can. My daughter bought me some soap. You knew that it wasn’t yours or any thing you would buy or steal. Opened it and used it any way. That’s rude, ghetto and trifling. Everything that went wrong you swore I did it. I cleaned every day because I wanted to I enjoyed it all I expected was a thank you or some acknowledgement that I was aware of what needed to be done. . And when Tree moved in we both did it or what ever anyone else did somehow I had something to do with it. You told me that Tree doesn’t think of any one but him and I didn’t want to believe that was true. Yes he was back and forth but he was getting better that’s why I was with him because he asked me to be. Well my heart fuck me up and I fell in Love but that didn’t mean I was off our plan and starting doing things different. I was trying to implement Tree into it as well. So that we could all benefit. You told me to not to leave tree in the garage alone. You were always wondering if he took your junk from you if he had more that he said or gave him
You said he always wanted more and you couldn’t enjoy anything. Because he takes most all of it more than he can give
So I told Tree and I said you we have to all three talks and clear the air. He always said that he would handle it so as his woman I said ok. I mean he told me things you said about me. And so on everyone thinks the other is shiesty and we don’t trust each other. I started going next door because you didn’t want me in you garage and I didn’t have my car so I went to her home to kill time smoke my weed and chill. I never ever told her anything about what goes on at the house. She told me things that went on there before I showed up but she doesn’t care. she says its nobody’s business what happens in any ones home She was very upset that you told my daughter what you said about here home her business true or un true and we never discussed any thing other that we are not getting along. You of all people s who says you don’t care about anyone’s bossiness As you tell it .Tree and I discussed what needs to be done so we can both get on our feet because we cant do it by ourselves I even said we can be roommates lets just get the work and business done . Well some did and some didn’t and that bothered me
I like being productive
And when I could handle my business It effected me because although I'm in your house I'm trying to handle my business so that I can get out . And when things slowed down I started trying to handle it the best way I could. So much was said but it was so stupid I couldn’t see how it mad it possible to get things done. Now I was informed that you were keeping the drama with wannie going on purpose.
I was also informed that you told many people that I didn’t have my rent money and when you asked to see it Iit I refused . refused. How is that true? When I showed it to you, you said you didn’t care what I had... So it seem we all have been lying and assuming
I don’t know who did what. All I know is that yes I had my rent and I was trying to give you a bit more for your brother seeing as has my Man and everything I'm trying to do what I have to do while he does what he need to do .. But he can get off focus so easily. . I tried to show him my trust in him I told him all the bills that needed to be paid and what we could do it was all planned out. then one day bingo came and money kept getting shorter and shorted I was getting nervous be cause I kept hoping that them money would be there No he never stole a thing for me but lets just say the money got spent before it was put to the side for rent . Suddenly all I had was a certain amount
Tree and I said that if we were being treated so badly then we will just leave. Just like you talked about Tree he talked about you too we all did it. In these letter is every thing I sad and felt we said if we wren t wanted there then we would leave. Then he said he would leave and I told him that you didn’t want him to go it me that you are giving a hard time to so I will go then ehe said no Its you and me we do it together . So we talked made plans.
Suddenly after the plans were made he pulls out. And said I did it and he didn’t know as we talk for days. About it and I kept saying we need all to talk to you all the while he says he will handle it. I had my money in my pocket I dint have the 110 for one reason only it was there and then it was gone not stolen just spent . So I made arrangements to get the rest of the money. I even asked Tray to talk to and if he did. So when I tried to talk to you- you yelled and screamed and didn’t want to hear it and you thought what you wanted to think and that was that. There was so much more to it than that. The bottom line I do Love your brother very much and I know he can get him self together with a little help. But that doesn’t mean that I have forgot what I needs to be done and what I want to do not for on second. But people think the way they want without knowing any thing
The thing is Marcella you don’t know anything about me other that what you heard every one has told you the negative but not what they did. Just all bad on me. Derrick had been in prison the majority of my life he don’t know me either , My life no matter what that family has to say about me . I give less that a shit. because I have finished college , traveled gave birth to 5 kids and had a life with ups and downs like every one else When My son the one I gave birth to was murdered I was and still devastated and as time goes on I get better . But I still hurt
Like I said I was told you threw away the ashtray my son gave me. And you did it out of spite I was also told that you may have my phone charger that was when you called my mother and daughter and said all the things that were said. I would never tell anyone anything about you especially t you kids. Even though he has never seen you do it think how smart he is and do you think has not aware. You thought I said so much when I never said a thing. Most of every thing that was everything said to me because I may say one word out of not knowing and everyone spill the beans. Did you know I knew you smoked before I stepped foot in your house. Lots of people told me that. .Me I'm like so what
With Derrick it was very different. I could care less about what people do just don’t fuck with me. I'm saying this because I have been taking the heat for a lot so lets just let it be known what we all have been doing We have been talking behind each others back you me tree and we don’t trust each other and we smile in each others face. Assuming what we are doing and not knowing and then believing its true and telling other people. So do we grow up or still ride the backward train to nowhere . Your SMUD bill that bill was past due when I got there. Nothing had been put on that bill in months. Yet I used my Social Security number to help pay a bill you talk about but couldn’t be about. And had the nerve to say that the least we could to be pay a portion. Well I made the calls that took days to do because how hard it is to get through. Made the appointment got there, sighed all the papers, and went to pay the bill. But I didn’t see you there and it’s your bill. But the crack good or bad made its way to the door. You always had a comment about my weed. So lame. talking about parole with all the rigs and foil pipes. You d drive to get some junk. And let Tree drive when you want it. Some how when he wants to drive you get you r usual vibe. Yet you say what you do is your business. But you have been constantly in mine. Me and Trey cant have a conversation with out coming in the room and asking what we are talking about make some nasty negative comments, And get pissed if some one doest the same . That’s called being a hypocrite. Yes I gave you the money late by 1 day but after I did it took you a week to go pay it twice.
So we are both on the internet selling out bodies because we need to come up with something fast. How is it I'm a Ho and you giving massages? I have nerve heard a woman
Scream so long and hard over a massage. So many times. And use condoms with those massages.
So we go in and buy some dope. I don’t get my bundle until the next day after you smoked on it , cooked it back also if that’s the truth and it came back small. I mean. If i put product in the hand and you and Mark are smokers and you think I not aware of the pinch off. Cook back smaller drag. Now when Derrick said that to you – you sure didn’t believe it. You didn’t believe it when Tree did and said the same thing. Do you think I believed you? No! It just wasn’t worth it. People who are cut throats have much to hide. If you feel some one is going to steal from you. Chances are you have stolen a lot. So your bundle is missing .that what you told me then mine was too. Well the house isn’t that big .especially when I put it next to something else what was straight then it was turned. Do I think someone took it? No but the possibility is always there.
I get more and give you some, Just on GP. The a couple of days you come and ask me to GIVE you some I did Twice I GAVE it to you because I wanted you to GIVE me my money back. So you came with that weak stuff. You gave it to me... Oh brother so I let that go along with so many things.
Then sweat me over 10 dollars. Petty as they come. Like I said I cleaned be cause I enjoyed it but not if a mutherfucker thinks that t=they can order some one around.
Since we are keeping count on how many times cooked. I did it 4 times
Let’s see how many times did you clean the bathroom? None since I have been there
Washing dishes once or twice a week with a big dose bitching.
Vacuumed 3 times took out garbage. I never saw that.
Washed all the laundry not just yours. I saw you start it but I finished it
My pad fell out in the bathroom when I was on my period. Do you know how many times I have cleaned your blood from under the toilet?
Every thing is yours. My this, My that, My whatever.
I used the garage to get some peace and quite. To get out of the way. And stay out of the way.
Just because it’s your place. It doesn’t mean you can treat people any kind of way.
I tried talking to find out what was it I did to make you so upset. But you didn’t want to communicate fix it and move on.
If you had a problem with you could have simply said what I was doing wrong and what how you like it done.
People can’t work together when one always wants more than the other and give less.
I came in buying drinks. You drank most of my drink and I have to buy more. Then you would buy your own not share I like my drink to last. And If I bought it I want the last. . So I bought my own and shared here and there. I bought you alcohol. And you hardly ever you did but not with out bitchin. Then you started that shit that I wanted to do something with Derrick. You must be outta your mind. Those were your insecurities not mine but you decided that I had something to do with it. Talked about Derrick like a you couldn’t wait to get rid of him. And thank God I was here. Then you started with the demon shit. IF you want to find your demons look in the mirror. Then you charge me for trying to make money in your house and you are making more money than me.. Yet you always had your hand out. I cleaned your home because I wanted to. From Feeding and bathing Kilo and making sure he had food. Out of appreciation. Taking out the out side garbage for pick up and immediately putting it back. It was on your mind after it was taken care of
If you are kind to me I'm kind to you. You got at me fucked up and I asked you what was wrong you didn’t say at thing.
I met your brother and. I felt he was a breath of fresh air. You guys talked about Wanie like a dog because what she did and proclaimed how Tree should leave her
Then you guys said work it out. all of this from a man that spends more time smoking crack that spending time with his wife and a woman who’s still married to another man. I talk to him about going back and tiring to work it out several times. One time when he left my heart walked out with him.
You said you wanted to see me with Tremell because wanie and shit and she’s old news and cant do nothing for tree othter than what they had both been doing which is fuck othere people .. You said you can tell I was good for him.
I have done more for that man in 3 months than his so called wife couldn’t do in 20.
No body likes her she’s fucked in the family before.
It was always about fuck that bitches. You r brother was in Jail with no shoes
And the bitch didn’t care that should always remind you of what’s in here heart for your brother. She was doing her and you said that you don’t care what she does because Tree has done his shit too. You said you aint never seen those family that much ever. Then you have a complaint about Tree smoking. . Wanniie told Tree that you told her he was smoking. And the whole time you are serving him, treating him and smoking your damn self. You also told her we were sleeping together. That’s messy and to your brother- man. Betrayed him just over envy and selfishness you are a cold piece of work. .And that you would ask if I were smoking. Aint that some shit.
Yet I’m being called whores and sluts’ tramps, nasty just horrible untrue things. Yet I continue to be the bigger person. Because it takes 2 to fight and I that is out of my element .I'm way to mature. I have consideration for other people. I have much more class and dignity, and all around decorum. Ok so Tree wants to be with wannie because he likes to sit at home and Wannie can clean well but here cooking is shit. You are right she’s not a beauty queen. I think she looks like Kilos MOM. Do you really think that lowly of your brother? All you did was talk how you and I helped and when he was doing the welding job. You and I both said he abandoned us. And he will do what ever wannie says and he’s always been more into her family than his own not showing up at functions. You never went to Wannies family because the were very funny style.
All of my business is out the as you say what happens in this house stays here
Wannie said she knew you were smoking and she thought I did. She told me that’s not new it been going on for years and that’s the main reason he was there.
If Tree hadn’t erased those text messages she wrote you’d be more pissed than you al ready are.
Glen’s party set off a lot of drama. You pissed off Wannie and she called me and dropped a dime on you. She called me and told me disrespected here by introducing him to someone he used to know... So she left me a message. Then when we talked. She told me a lot of what you said. But let you guys tell it I did it all. She did the same thing that night I pocked her up im my car I told her the things she thought were going on were not.. she ent on to say that shes been going through this for years and she can tell when hes high, didn’t know him well enough to know, but you guys were so frantic that I was telling everything you guys just walked in to what she was saying.
I was told that Tree always fell for what other ptpplr said amd would imagime the worst
Whrn he was high. So all of this I'm sure will be labled as untrue. As I always ays especially when I'm telleig the truth and have done nothing wrong. I don’t want or need to convince anyone God knows the truth. I just wanted to have my say
I'm stressed and sick just like everyone else . I'm sick of the lies and the deceit and bullshit. People in the same house trying tp grt over on some ome
When Wannie told your mom about Tree smoking you guys thought that was out of pocket . So when you did it to my daughter and mother who knew nothing of what happed in that house. Was that right? It’s the guilty conscious that you guys have so
You do things based on here say and nevr getting it right.. every one wants to roast someome or bust them out or sock someone up. I'm grown and I simpy don’t get down like that. I'm too old for that shit. if a person cant talk eithout things getting to heated then theres nothing I want to say because. Everyone gets caught up no matter what..
I never stole or wanted to steal from you , Monte stole from me s
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The way to talk and yell all the time is just wrong and drain. You order people around and hardly ever say thank you or please. I hear you catch yourself from time to time. I'm a grown woman and not you or anyone else can make me do something at an orders. If you like giving orders join the military. The first time I cooked. You loved the meal I even ran you bathe water. Out of the kindness of my heart and to contribute but Derrick constantly said shit. You see all of the negative things Derricks family thinks of me was because he was pissed that I wouldn’t let him come home.
I tried to talk to you to find out the problem but you refused you chose to be pissed
Then acted like you hated me and wanted to get down. The thing is All You bitches got me fuckup. .I is far far far from a punk, and messy ghetto bitches bull shit. Is Childs play. And a huge waist of time.
Drinking all of my drinks. I buy teas and dark for you and you can’t do the same.
We all by food but you want the first the last and some in be tween.
A Mother Fucka can’t eat with out you wanted what they have to make for you and bring
To you. Acted a zip goddamn fool when Mark offered and gave me some food. You truly did not want me to have any and you wanted it all for you. You really are not a Queen Bee you are beautiful and you have wonderful qualities. You trip over the smallest shit. You haven’t cleaned that bathroom since I moved in but you don’t have a problem using my stuff I clearly have for me when you are out. You sneak it and pretend you have no Idea where at came from. Is that where Monte gets it. Steal from you and then call you the thief.
Then you would say the worst things about wannie and here family ass the bring drama to your home disrespecting it then you call them 10 minutes after they leave and call them a sack of bitches.. So now you get mad at met and suddenly Waninie is your best buddy and now it’s your mission to get them back together.
Poor confused Shawana. She believes she can control a human. And she believes Tremell is a puppet and she knew he’d be there no matter what she did.
Poor Dumb uneducated no class looking bulldog. She fucks a married man. It’s ok for her
Just forgive it and let that go. Yet she sure likes throwing that wife shit around. When a person has had enough, then that’s the end of that.
Have you considered your brothers feeling in all of this? He came to you to get away from her and you allowed here to bring all that mess to your house. He needed to think and he needed to be somewhere where he didn’t have to deal with it. You’d say in words that she couldn’t come over any more but never to her and he messy family
That’s called a drama lover and lack of respect and you claim that not what you
Wamt or is it keep in mind the demon you constantly think of is still there
He will always be there because has in you minded and until you release your demons your own demons you will never be free.
Talking about people behind there backs then hugging them and calling them boo
Fake! Every one knows you love money but more than people I don’t think so.
But you say you don care. You talked about me, Tree, Wanie her whole family
Yet your brother loves you so much he does almost anything you wanted but you
Treat him like a step child, I’m his woman and you and you come at me foul in front
Of him disrespecting me and him because if it says something then you are on his shit.
Do you care about his happiness or his business? You are so up his ass in his business and his relationships he can’t handle it. You are suspicious of those who have nothing but love for you. I have a will always have love for you but respect, and trust well I know you could care less. SO while you chop me up as you always have adding your own special sauce to it more than enough... Funny that we all put in on food... Yet you cook a lot for just you then server every one but me .Wasn’t I in line getting food just like you. At the store and the food line. We both put in everything we could to get things paid.
But you came at me brand new and improved – New package same shit with a bow on it
What ever Tremell wants let him decide it’s his life he doesn’t need his sister holding his cards and papers and when he needs them he has to wait.
Every one keeps throwing the words Marriage and Husband and Wife.
When Winnie was doing her letting the kids go wild sending a note every once in while saying remember I’m you r wife. No money. No word of love support. Nothing
While he has to deal the mental issues that come with incarceration. If she wanted him se would have been there for him. She was prepared to throw him to the curb before he was even released. She dogged him out and was ready to do more, so he can beg wannie and she treats him like shit while she’s feeling herself. Because she fell for a married man. That she didn’t ad still hasn’t given up. Years and marriage doesn’t mean shit. When Love respect and simple human caring is gone. She completely forgot about him. She didn’t miss him for 3 years but suddenly when someone who’s genuine comes around and put a monkey wrench in her shit. We never started out on a sexual thing. We talked and shared similar experiences. Every one knows I suggested that he go and try again. He was miserable. He never left her for me the marriage was over when she left her husband for dead while she got her pussy filled with another mans cum.
Well that a damn good reason to stay together.
So I cume over to ask if we could talk. I said that a lot of this stuff happened because I was trying to protect your brother. And that nothing is happening over where I am but I have a feeling that you don’t kwiw certain things so. I know I never mentioned drugs
And you didn’t either. Yet Tree comes to me saying that I said he uses too many drugs
When I just told you last week that he ad been real cool on it,
All of this and I still tried to make it work. You are now better cleaner on the ball got it together no more than anyone else. You may never think this but you make many mistakes and when you are called on you get upset and deny it. We are all human, and we all make mistakes. I don’t expect you to think about or apologize. I don’t think it in you. So continue to chop me up. Keep me on your mind and in your mouth. And wondering what I'm doing as you say to every one that it’s not your business it really
Isn’t so stay out of it and mind yours. Maybe I wouldn’t have interrupted you so much
And zapped you with my mouth can get down just like yours.
This is the only way I can tell you how I feel with out you screaming inter rupting or shutting down .shit you may not ever read this because its some hard truths in here but hell I sure feel better . Good Luck to you and Big Derrick
So what ever I have done to you I sincerely apologize. I'm happy to talk about all of this and clear the air if we can Move on as friends. If not the best of all blessing you and yours.
